only love you

2010-04-28T02:55:00.000-07:00

dearest Muhd Munzir bin Sharil,
i miss you truckloads.
:((

2010-03-23T01:18:00.000-07:00

alamak, all my posts very mushy-mushy.
and facebook's love psychic thingy is bugging me with my 'secret admirer'.
how irritating.

and excuse me awak,
i miss you. (:

2010-03-18T19:30:00.000-07:00

sometimes it really gets on my nerves
when i see you wearing the stuffs i bought for you
with some new chick you went on a date with.
period.

like hello,
i was the one who bought you those clothes.
the one who changed the way you dress,
because you used to look like a matrep.
please eh.

its me.
all my god damn money!
argh!

and anyways,
HAPPY 19TH BIRTHDAY, CASSIE DHYL!
I LOVE YOU DEEP DEEP!
next month aku punye pula.

2010-03-10T23:38:00.000-08:00

i know you've regret letting me go.

since we're here right now,
instead of just walking out,
let's work to reach the point.
i know that we could be.

you know that i have no doubt,
we can still work this out.

truth is,
i rindukan you lah.

2010-03-01T05:44:00.000-08:00

you didn't show me that you really need me.
not even close.
not even trying.
why must i make the effort
when all you do is sit down and relax all day.
why?

baby, i am sorry.
i just have to move on.
if we were ever meant to be,
we will one day.
you take care.

2010-02-22T19:14:00.000-08:00

i remembered the other day when you wanted to buy the posters for your room and i said 'no, they're too expensive'. well baby, that's only because i wanted to get them for you on your special day.

i miss you sugarpie.

i hope that one day you'll realise that you made a mistake by letting me go.

till then, only love you.

2010-02-21T03:16:00.000-08:00

satu bende ah eh,
aku tak heran ah dengan kau.
dah bagus tu aku nak balik ah!
sial!

2010-02-05T02:44:00.000-08:00

there's nothing i can say to you,
nothing i could ever do,
to make you see what you mean to me.
all the pain, the tears i've cried,
still you never said goodbye,
and now i know, how far you'd go.

i know i'd let you down,
but it's not like that now.
this time, i'll never let you go.

i will be, all that you want and get myself together.
'cause you keep me from falling apart.
all my life, i'll be with you forever,
to get you through the day
and make everything ok.

'cause without you, i can't sleep.
i'm never gonna ever, ever let you leave.
you're all i've got, you're all i want,
and without you, i don't know what i'll do.
i could never ever live a day without you,
here with me, do you see?
you're all i need.

2010-01-25T10:07:00.000-08:00

today's our 1st month together.

kental.

but whatever,
i will always love you, gemuk.
but kan, baby's at the hospital!
kesian, baby i.
hehehe.

later i belikan you a bucket of strawberries ok?

2010-01-19T23:47:00.000-08:00

yay!
baby fetch me home today.

well, actually i was a lil upset with him lah.
thought he wanted to come down with a huuuuge hello kitty bear.
sekali, tak. -.-

slacked at simei.
abeh dah.
ok bye.
haha.

i love kau, gemuk!

2010-01-19T03:40:00.000-08:00

semalam i met mimi at gombak.
darling mimi begged me to help him fill in his abang's card jemputan.
sumpah, pemalas.

and bro, kau punye maggi power gedegak!
nak lagi!!!

2010-01-17T07:53:00.000-08:00

well, baby's left for KL.
i swear i'm so mad at him!
promised to fetch me home just now.

but i didn't expect him to come.
thought wanted to surprise at ubi with my bear so he can sleep with it in KL.
but noooo,

"b, i penat lah."
"it's ok if you're tired b, i'll come down there ok? so you can rest. later kan nak drive?"
"no need to meet me lah. you rest. lagipun you must be tired. i also want to sleep. no need to meet k? i love you. later i call you."

that was strange.
it's ok, so i met rai at the usual playground before i went home.
i assumed he must have been asleep so i wouldn't want to disturb.

3 am, i swear i can't sleep.
so tried my luck.

he picks up,
"eh? you kata nak tidur? ke wake up already? so early?"
"err, i didn't sleep lah. i go fishing. black ajak."

WTF? i wanted to meet you.
and you just dissed me off because your friend, the one going KL with you asked you out?
i haven't met you for a week you know.
nabei teng teng!

don't call me ah!
i want to merajuk!

2010-01-14T16:43:00.000-08:00

kau kerlipan cahaya kecil
menyinari hudupku
ku hanyalah gadis sepi
yang tertawan dengan sinarmu
memberi kekuatan dan keyakinan diri
pada hati yang tersangkar di dalam duka

kau lilin cintaku dengan keindahanmu
mengusir kenangan yang menggugut perasaan
kau lilin cintaku
memberi nafas baru
di dalam dunia hatiku yang kegelapan

kau yang dulu kedinginan
tidak lagi keseorangan
kau datang dalam hidupku
menyalakan harapan baru
sungguh aku terharu dengan pengorbananmu
rela terbakar demi sebuah cinta

shut up.
just feeling jiwang-ish.

2010-01-13T04:41:00.000-08:00

lagi berapa hari tinggal sahaja, sebelum baby saya berangkat ke KL.
baby! i want to meet you tomorrow. pleaaaaase? :(

tomorrow i off tau.

2010-01-12T01:29:00.000-08:00

i is so want to go to muse's concert!
please baby?
buy for me the tickets. :B

fyi, first day at work was so-so.
all my colleagues are chinese.
but i don't really mind.
haha.

and baby, please understand, now on i cant really meet you everyday you know.
because i mesti busy punya.

i love you, cupcake.

2010-01-10T12:11:00.000-08:00

i was talking to boyfriend about going on a holiday this coming april or june with black and cream the other day, when he popped out this question,

"b, i know what to buy for you on the 25th!"
"ok, what?"
"cannot tell you ah gemok! wait tak secret. you, stupid."
"ok lah i stupid, i also don't want to know. sorry lah yang tak stupid.." o.O
"abeh, kau nak belikan aku ape?"
haha.
sumpah, i laughed.

then i said,
"eh, i bought you early presents ok. for, i think, the next few months punye ah!"
"ape you belikan i? mane ade?"
"belt Diesel, baju AX, 2 baju Topman, topi Ripcurl, slipper Reef and the baju at River Island. ape lagi aku tak belikan kau? satu set lagi! haha."
"diam ah kau!"
-.-

haha, merajuk lah tu dia.
cute kan kau?
i like the way he say, 'you, stupid.'
macam step cute gitu. tapi cute.
ok, i'm bored!
mimi! save me from my boredom.
mimi told me to overnight at his place then go work tomorrow from there. o.O
yes, i know we're very good good super close friends,
but i'm positive my boyfriend won't allow.
you know lah, his perangai.
and some more, you're a guy.
your head!

2010-01-10T03:05:00.000-08:00

nuff said.
i'm tired.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
and, i'm sorry cupcake.
i didn't mean to say all those words to you over the phone just now.
mengamok sekejap.
faham?
sorry. :(

and, you better balik by 5 ah.
gua bagi warning sama lu.
cakap nak balik, then peng changi go fishing.
pantat.
make sure fishing ah! no funny business.
i trust you tau.

2010-01-09T11:07:00.000-08:00

and i think you'll see lesser of me from next week on.
since i'll be starting my new job.
but i try to update, ok?

even if no one's reading.
sedih bulu.

2010-01-09T08:22:00.000-08:00

my boobs hurt.
o.O

2010-01-08T22:58:00.000-08:00

it's friday night!
and i'm at home.
gaaaaaaaah!

shut up!
i bet my people are all partying. cb.
i'll have my turn soon.
next week ah!

and b, you tak boleh ikut!
because you going KL.
too bad!

but i still love you lah.
don't worry, cupcake. :B

2010-01-08T02:37:00.000-08:00

nuff said.

2010-01-06T23:47:00.000-08:00

i'm officially not unemployed anymore. yay!
alhamdullilah.
i'm starting work next monday.
wish me luck, you guys. :B
ok bye.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
and, eh gang, tkmu mengamok ah!
prangai last warning sial kau!
aku pergi cari kerje bukan jumpe jantan!
(that's my evil side talking. opps.)

awak, don't angry-angry lah. please?
maaf. :(

2010-01-05T22:36:00.000-08:00

my abang 'body'.
o.O

met boyfriend just now after 756490247 days of not meeting.
he got mad at me because
i was suppose to accompany him to CGH and take MC at 9 in the morning.
but, i got up at 12. :B
sorry lah! i was tired ok.
alamak.

so, met him at my void deck.
and bus-ed to his place.
since i can't be home late.
just hang around.
goreng nuggets, but at last he's the one who goreng.
hehe. lazy lah.
reached home at 6.
and i'm tired.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
good luck to me, for my job hunting tomorrow!
(motivation doh!)
and dzul! you better teman me ah!
i don't care.
ok bye. ;)

2010-01-04T02:27:00.000-08:00

this is random,
but i hope mine and kaka's plan will happen on our birthday.
haha, we planned to go out together.
since, we both have the same birth dates.
cute, right?
but he's a few years older.

ok, so tak perlu.
but, what the heck.
i hope boyfriend will approve.

and gemok! please take care of your health lah.
every time take half day.
take MC lah, off lah.
you ah, pantat betul.

2010-01-03T15:28:00.000-08:00

baby, cepat pass your bike license.
i sudah malas mahu go public.

and please, don't bring RXZ.
very mat-mat, you know?
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
i miss you.
bye. :B

2010-01-01T01:31:00.000-08:00

happy new year, you guys!
o.O
hope ya'll have a blissful year ahead of you.
(wah, so typical ah?)

so, what are my resolutions?
easy,

1. find a halal job and save money for shopping.
oh wait, i mean, school. :B
2. loose 2kg every month.
(a thing between me, my mum and my brother.)
3. make my mumy and boyfriend happy.
4. throw out all my ugly bad habits.
(like, waking up in the late afternoon and eating too much. o.O)

ok lah, i know my resolutions are very lame.
but, what the heck.
they're mine, not yours.
so, shut up.

and sorry boyfriend, i didn't get to meet you yesterday.
meet you soon ok, bacin?
ok, bye.

i miss my babydolls.
meet up soon ok? pretty pleeeeeease. :(

2009-12-31T20:39:00.000-08:00

i'm BORED!
it's fucking new year's eve and i'm at home.
o.O

mumy, i nak keluaaaaaaar!
so, help me god.

2009-12-31T18:25:00.000-08:00

haha.
b, you matrep ah?
eh, but i'm not a minahrep ah.
basket.
:B

2009-12-27T01:47:00.000-08:00

now i finally got the picture from vivien.

the one on christmas's eve.

i love you, gemok!

2009-12-26T23:40:00.000-08:00

pictures from vivo.

shut up.
i was still in my hangover mode.
:B

once at clark quay, i got tired of taking photos.
haha.
k bye.

2009-12-26T21:15:00.000-08:00

kau call, then letak.
macam bodoh kan?
puas hati tak payah call k?
save duit kau.

bodoh punye stalker.
grrr.

2009-12-25T20:45:00.000-08:00

it's christmas, people!

yay!
actually after a late lunch with munzir's family, he was suppose to be doing his eyebrows.
but, member got too caught up meeting with acai.
he forgot. -.-
so now his kening still ugly. haha.
so bad.

anyways aunty, thanks for the treat.
i malu lah. :P

so, we met acai and vivien at somerset in the evening.
watched a movie about selling cars at 10 pm.
and alvin and the chipmunks 2 at fucking 3.05 in the morning!
talk about a marathon.
semangat ok the four of us. :B
loads of pictures taken while waiting for the second movie.
haha, stupid ones also.
i had fun. (:

and guess what?

i'm taken. :B

2009-12-21T22:39:00.000-08:00

♥ you.

2009-12-20T08:32:00.000-08:00

how was my weekend?
one word: SUPERB.

partying with dzul was a blast!
never had that much fun!
met munzir, fil and acai the next day at vivo.

afterwhich we,
hanged out with vivien at clark quay and the esplanade.
crashed at his place after that.
reached home at 7.30 in the morning.

which was just an hour ago.
ok, i'm tired.
bye. :B

2009-12-15T01:56:00.000-08:00

cibai.
my blog's getting kerepot.
months after months of not updating.
well, maybe for a fact that i got a life. :B
ok, no lah. i'm sorry to those frequent bloggers.
i wasn't saying that you people got no life.
i was just too god damn lazy to blog.

but,
i, siti radhiah binte mohamed hashim,
promise that from this day on, i will start back blogging.
set?

ok bye. :B

2009-12-11T01:55:00.000-08:00

happy 21st birthday, Md Riduan!

may you have a blissful year ahead.
and semoga panjang umur and murah rezeki.
send regards to your family for me.
and your niece and nephew!
i missed them!
(:

2009-11-17T20:26:00.000-08:00

did i tell you i met my ex-boyfriend yesterday?
yes i did!
well, i know it's no biggie.
but i don't care!
it's a fucking big deal to me!
gaaaaaawd! i miss my legong sleepy head riduan!
he made me come all the way to jurong.
and surprised me with fish & chips and green tea.
(my favourites)
so sweet.
but it was worth the journey.
and your eyebrows eh, please.
no, eh.

and you know what he asked me?
"ma, you still love me or not?"
o.O
wtf? i kept quiet and smiled.
then gave him a hug.
whatever that means.
haha.

oh well,
your birthday's coming soon.
dah tua ah kau.
:B

see, i know he felt bad breaking up with me.
but, idk?

2009-05-26T04:01:00.000-07:00

i'm still in love with you, boy.
fuck the post a month ago.
i still can't forget you.
why, oh why?

after all the fucked up things you did to me.
why am i still not over you? bleargh.

i hate this. :(
muuuuuuumy!

2009-05-11T22:12:00.000-07:00

what is love?

it is one of the most difficult questions for the mankind.

centuries have passed by, relationships have bloomed and so has love.

but no one can give the proper definition of love.

to some, love is friendship set on fire.

for others, maybe love is like luck.

you have to go all the way to find it.

no matter how you define it or feel it,

love is the eternal truth in the history of mankind.

love is patient, love is kind.

it has no envy, nor it boasts itself and it is never proud.

it rejoices over the evil and is the truth seeker.

love protects, preserves and hopes for the positive aspect of life.

always stand steadfast in love, not fall into it.

it is like the dream of your matter of affection coming true.

love can occur between two or more individuals.

it bonds them and connects them in a unified link of trust,

intimacy and interdependence.

it enhances the relationship and comforts the soul.

love should be experienced and not just felt.

the depth of love can not be measured.

look at the relationship between a mother and a child.

the mother loves the child unconditionally

and it can not be measured at all.

a different dimension can be attained between any relationships

with the magic of love.

love can be created.

you just need to focus on the goodness of the other person.

if this can be done easily, then you can also love easily.

and remember we all have some positive aspect in us,

no matter how bad our deeds maybe.

and as they say, "love all...".

2009-05-11T01:30:00.000-07:00

happy momma's day, mumy~

i know i've been such a pain in the ass, recently.

i've been causing heboh heboh at home.
i did things you'd never imagine that i'll do.

and mumy, i'm very very sorry for that.

youve've been the best momma that i would ever ask for.

you've been there for me, always.

you were there when i was on the edge with riduan.

you'd prsevere in times it was hard.

you gave me, anna and a'an unconditional love.

i can't imagine life without you.

thank you so much for everything,

be it the stupidest advice you'd tell me or the good ones.

your funny jokes and your stories had never failed making me smile.

and at times when you'd cry in front of me, i felt so helpless.

i thanked allah each and eveyday to have you.

and that i still have you.

i prayed each day for your good health and a good job.

and, a good me.

mumy, i love you very the very the very very much lah montel!

my very vain mumy. sempat siol touch up.

muka shock! masai.

i love you mumy!

2009-05-03T00:45:00.000-07:00

went on a movie date with sadik.
si budak kecik tu.
(well, actually he's not small, just younger. haha.)

i owe him that date actually.

because kan, aku selalu lambat bila nak pergi school dengan dia.

we watched x-men orgins: wolverine.

not bad, i'll give it 4 popcorns. haha.

all the while he was very noisy,

and GOD! i have to remind him to shut up.

i met zee and azul.

one word: sweet!

they're so cute together.

khehe.

ok, and that's all.

i shall not elaborate any further.

bye.

2009-05-01T01:55:00.000-07:00

happy 15th birthday, baby sister!

have fun with fhiez and your girlfriends.

sorry no present. :B

i love you!

2009-04-29T23:30:00.000-07:00

lately i've been thinking about what i can do,

i've been stressing to fall back in love with you.

i'm so sorry, i couldn't follow through.

i can't go on this way, i've got to stop this.

you've been wonderful in all that you can be,

and baby, i'm greatly thankful.

i'm trying so hard to take us back to where we were before.

but i think i'm done, i just can't do this anymore.

you know we can't be mended, so let's stop pretending now.

we've been walking in circles for some time,

and i finally think we should head for the finish line.

so believe me, i'm sorry.

days turned into weeks, then months.

i can do this, i'm moving on.

i don't want to have the same song on repeat.

i don't want to cry everynight thinking about what mistakes that i've done to deserve this fate.

i don't want to wait, i don't want to do things first.

i hate giving in to you.

i hate sacrificing for you.

i hate having the feeling of breaking down in front of mumy when we start talking about you.

i hate you being so selfish.

and you know, it's you who's being childish.

it's you who needs to change, baby.

not me.

so yes, i had enough.

i've tried so hard, and i don't think you're giving any effort.

the effort to show me that you did really love me.

you're pathetic.

surprisingly, i'm actually ok with this moving on thing.

i'm actually not crying typing this post.

thanks for making me stronger eh.

thanks for making me realise, riduan.

yay!

2009-04-28T02:52:00.000-07:00

i want to forget you.

but, can i?
argh!

2009-04-26T02:49:00.000-07:00

i miss you very much lah, Md Riduan.

hais.

2009-04-20T02:35:00.000-07:00

and to that one person:
don't think that you're all that.
first telling me this and
the next, saying something different.
please, better think it through before saying anything.
and you told me what?
'girls, they come and go.'
look at yourself.
you should be ashamed.
i don't care, and i don't think other girls cares
about bikes or money or looks.
i don't think it's me or them other girls who goes for those.
i think it's just you.
you're too fussy.
and being fussy won't get you anywhere.
get me?
get a life, you pussy~

and oh, i did some theory of my own.

in conclusion,

all boys, guys, men = assholes.

agree?

2009-04-19T23:26:00.000-07:00

that's the card with the flower.

and the cake from mumy.

love you people! <3

2009-04-19T15:15:00.000-07:00

hello you people.

yesterday was a w e s o m e !

despite someone forgetting my birthday.
i knew it. fat hope.

and because of that (and other old reasons), we finally, officially broke up.

yes sir, we did.
i had enough with his craps lah. aiyooo.
all the arguments.

but,

i totally had fun with my girls.

lots of gossiping and latest stories. haha.

we went for a quick lunch and did some window shopping.

thanks you girls, for spending the time with my on my birthday.

and hell yeah! i'm 18!

like, finally.

later that evening went to meet my friend for movie.

we watched fast & furious 4.

not bad lah. but i think it's too short.

the cars were all so awesome.

haha, that's probably it.

nothing much right?

but it's the thought that counts.

i got a daisy and a big card from my dawls.

i love you girls. <3

2009-04-17T23:22:00.000-07:00

lunch with 'khehe' was, no comments.

haha.

out with family and the rest was a blast.

nuff said, the food was grrrr-eat! and i ate a lot.

haha.

hope tomorrow will be great!

i miss my dawls.

2009-04-17T01:25:00.000-07:00

happy birthday wak lala & abang ami!

semoga muda rezeki & panjang umur!

my two favourites~

2009-04-16T23:33:00.000-07:00

i'm suppose to be asleep right now.

mumy sudah bising.

and it's only what? 11? -_-"

haha.

i think, i'll be meeting 'khehe' tomorrow.

right after school.

(obviously, i'll go home and change.)

if! he can get up early. maybe by 2.30?

then after lunch, hantar saya balik.
(don't worry baby, i still love you.)

since he's off to work at 6.

boohoo.

so sekejap.

then get change for dinner with familia.

wak lala's and abang ami's birthday is tomorrow.

celebrate together-gether. lol

dah setahun tua. hehe.

and to abang ami!

'ORD oh!' haha.

by the way,

school was cool.

ha ha ha.

oi! support SPP eh?

lol

2009-04-16T17:20:00.000-07:00

do come and support Smoke Party Production!

a fantastic line-up of new upcoming local bands.

and not forgetting, The Zozi!

obviously, there will be sexy boys and hearthrobs.

yummy!

if there's any enquiries,

please please please tag me!

now,

let's indie-go-go-go!

2009-04-14T07:23:00.000-07:00

it's so kecoh.

first mumy said it was on the 19th.

then plan changed to the 17th.

kesian abang ami.

but then, how am i suppose to go for my

i-owe-you-one date with 'khehe'?

(i don't want to put his name. my problem. lol)

boohoo.

now how?

he'll get mad for sure.

and! i don't know. :(

dan saya beharap dia tidak akan memarahi saya.

and change the date to the 19th instead.

or!

follow birthday girl and boy,

then off to meet him.

we'll see.

i'm missing boyfriend.

chibai.

2009-04-12T22:27:00.000-07:00

today i ate a lot for dinner.

hehe. not!

i was forced to eat.

but only took a little.

yay! schooling tomorrow!

less boredom, i think.

school's cool.

but then again, it kinda suck.

meeting them qyn, rai and mamas at small mac.

for a quick breakfast then off to sKoOl. -.-"

and,

satu budak tu cakap nak jumpa saya.

end up bangun lambat.

tak jadi, pasal boss called.

so! someone owes me one.

a date on the 17th.

huahuahua.

2009-04-11T16:59:00.000-07:00

aha, i was browsing through my picuture folders. and i saw these.

look at how we've changed girls!

from these to this.

haha. i'll always laugh whenever i take a look in these folders.

kekek dok. -.-"

2009-04-11T14:19:00.000-07:00

it's a saturday,

and i'm at home!

GRRRR-EAT!

aku nak keluar besok!

tidak peduli.

last seh before school.

i dont care!

i hope boyfriend doesn't forget my birthday.
or me.

am i not your girlfriend?

2009-04-10T23:23:00.000-07:00

nari aku very hyper because aku post 3 entries.

i freakishly ate a lot just now.

until 3rd helping to aunty's very yummy laksa.

and 2nd helping to her carrot cake.

i'll be fat once school re-open. hehe.

and the doctor said i have to watch what i eat if i'm taking the pills or i'll be fat. :(

i want to be sexy like beyonce tau. -.-"

at kak juli's we were all talking about the rojak inccident and holidays and about kain.

mummmmms. haha.

i want to go bali! eh?

and adik perempuan aku naik syiok keluar dengan boyfriend.

tinggalkan akuuuuu. boohoo.

by the way, baby kak juli cuuuuuuute!

2009-04-10T13:07:00.000-07:00

officially 8 more days!

to my legally 18th birthday!

"18 & life" - sufiyan. -.-"

2009-04-10T02:27:00.000-07:00

eh! why don't i have the space between the paragraphs?

there's actually spaces, you know! aiyoo.

i've cut my hair! yay!

now very short. not!

sayang eh nak gunting ni rambut.

i swear, i felt like crying everytime the woman snips my hair.

and i will kept on asking mumy, "pendek tak?", then and again.

haha. paranoid.

and i hate that i love you.

2009-04-09T04:45:00.000-07:00

"You spin my head right round, right round.

When you go down, when you go down down."

i remembered singing this song with you.

and the 'lucky' song macam orang gila on the phone.
and when i talk for so long,
and then suddenly hear you snore over the other line.

fact is, aku rindu kau!

tried so hard, play a couple of acts.

but darn, i can't.

you're everywhere, everyone i see is you.

whenever i wanted to move along

trying to get rid of you, everything,

and i really mean everything,

reminds me about you.
even my guy friends.
argh!

this may sound stupid. i know.

but ini semua benar!
because for a fact that you don't even noticed my existence anymore!

bahhhh.

i hate this. :(
i hate you.
we're never getting back to square one.

2009-04-07T03:24:00.000-07:00

guess it's been weeks since i've posted anything.

by the way, to make things clear for you babies out there:

saya dengan leon tiada kaitan atau apa-apa.

dia hanya kawan saya. ok?

that's one. haha.

today's tuesday and god dammit!

lagi lama nak sekolah.

i miss school. haha!

i'm going out!

maybe if daddy allows.

which i don't think he will.

i want to go out!

please daddy? *sad puppy face*

and, hoho.

i miss boyfriend.

boohoo.

2009-03-25T22:23:00.000-07:00

i felt like dying. i can't breathe. i can't walk.

god, help me.

yezzir, today was my most horrifying day.

took a cab to school pasal ada talk.

took a cab back home.

eating didn't help. nither is drinking.

im scared. but nasib i got better once i reached home.

rested. changed. shopping.

don't think i want to miss good deals. lol.

bought a esprit long pants and roxy perfume. yay!

i love you, mumy. thank you.

but nevertheless,

i'm still having the can't breathe easily thingy.

boohoo.

2009-03-22T19:42:00.000-07:00

the best of the bestest sister eventhough i only have her. my one and only. yes, i've been a pain in the ass lately at home,

but darn i am trying my best to make mumy and daddy happy.

she's been there, for the past 15 years.

my bestfriend, my shoulder to cry on, and everynight storyteller, my upmost enemy, my friend, my matair and mostly, my dearly sister.

i love you, sis.

teehee.

2009-03-19T23:48:00.000-07:00

ice skating for the first time with leon.
and i fell like nangka busuk(stale jackfruit).
and well yeah, he saved me.

my hero. :B

2009-03-18T08:20:00.000-07:00

rise and shine! am i up early or what?

yes, i'm bearly awake. mumy's been very noisy.

we're off for JB later and maybe that's the point. i would never be up this early on a school holiday. hehe.

let's get ready for JB's food, shopping and errr, GIANT?

bye-bye.

and,
happy 8th, boyfriend!
i love you.
hais.

2009-03-16T23:19:00.000-07:00

we were together for months and i'm still wondering why we don't take pictures together. it's either my face in his phone, candid, or his face in my phone, candid. note to self: take pictures together next time we meet. so yes, after 3 months of not meeting and days after the 'time out', we finally meet to talk things out. just now.

met him at his place pasal he just woke up. lucky i don't have to drop at boon lay to take the bus. now, i just have to drop at pioneer and walk. much nearer. ez-link money, save.

we plan sui-sui:
- meet him at jurong at 6.
- help him iron his clothes.
- hopped on the train back to city hall.
- watch mocca perform at esplanade.
- have supper.
- i go home and him off to work.

tired. angry. tv. doublecheese meal. talk. coke. cepat tepat. laugh. fiza o. amazing race. shout. almost cried. smoke fags. anak adam. mumy. handphone. make up. kiss. hug. couch. made in germany. fitness corner. walk. 10.30.

mumy, i didn't get to watch my mocca. so much for making me happy, boyfriend!

2009-03-15T20:37:00.000-07:00

i miss you girls.

let's meet. starbucks. hot chocolates. frappes. cheesecakes. pies. boys. magazines. school. camwhore. shopping. long hours. sleepovers. movie marathons. cup noodles. pyjamas. more camwhoring.

pretty please.

2009-03-15T01:17:00.000-07:00

watched "Coming Soon" with a friend today.

three words: very. thai. scary.

very suspend. very kurangajar.

nothing beats shisha with good friends.

2009-03-11T22:26:00.000-07:00

girls missing: shaz and dyra.

the holidays are here! let's grab our bikinis

and our suntan lotion and get golden. or roasted. :B

i don't think i'm going to be anywhere this holiday. it's too darn fucking short. i think. and i'll be extremely broke. i'll be jailed up at home unless! some angel out there will rescue me and bring me out. bahh! dream on! the furtherest i think i'll go is JB. nuff talking about the holidays, finally my exams are O V E R. yezzir! allhamdullilah. :E

2009-03-09T23:15:00.000-07:00

at last! some weight off my shoulders. i'm still left with:
1. fucking colouring practical exam.
(jules as my model)
2. fucking haircutting phase test re-test.
(brother as my model)

sumpah, i hate practical exams, always making my head felt as if it's going to freakishly burst in to small peices for the ants to take home.

luckily the paper just now wasn't as bad as i thought. ^.^

din fetch me from school to lepak and buy bubble teas. yay!

2009-03-08T23:47:00.000-07:00

fuck! my paper's tomorrow and i didn't even look through the book. didn't even touch. dhia, prepare to fucking fail!

went out the whole day with rai and dzul. first to bukit batok driving center to teman dzul. then to novena to teman me to change my wallet because of my oh-so-ganas hands. afterwhich went to city hall to meet faizal for a while. i really missed him.

2009-03-08T19:27:00.000-07:00

i love changing blogs.

it's my fucked up hobby.

-____-"